I read THIS article tonight and it was exactly what I needed to hear. It's all about how being a Stay-At-Home Mom (SAHM) isn't exactly what you had envisioned and is so much harder than you thought.
Well, AMEN sister.
Add to the mix a special needs child that goes to therapy 4 times a week, always seems to be sick with something, loves to pull your hair REALLY hard and needs constant supervision. Then add in a very talkative and inquisitive five year old that never slows down and you have one worn out Mommy. A Mommy who if she is being honest wishes she was working outside the home (more) again.
I know, that sounds awful. What kind of Mommy wishes she was working outside of the home instead of being home with her kids? Well...I wouldn't want to work 40+ hour weeks again, but part time would be pretty great. A Mommy just needs to feel human sometimes, you know?
Today I did get a break. In fact, it felt like a vacation day. How? Well....I went to work of course. I only work a handful of days a month and it is seriously good for me. Even though it was a very busy day at work, it felt so good to be a "normal" adult for 6 hours. I didn't have to take Parker to therapy, I didn't talk to a single Doctor's office, I didn't have to deal with toys all over the floor and a house that is a mess. I didn't have to see the piles of laundry that need put away or the dishes in the sink. I didn't get peed on or have to deal with blowouts. My hair didn't get pulled and my back didn't hurt from all the lifting. I didn't have to answer a million questions or come up with a new craft project. I got to put on nice clothes, do my hair and wear makeup. I got to talk to adults that were nice and asked how I was doing. I even got to listen to the music I like in the car. Wow!!
So, thank you to the Mommy who wrote THIS article. Thank you for making me feel somewhat normal for not thinking being a SAHM is completely wonderful all the time. I don't feel so alone and will try not to feel so guilty about enjoying my "vacation days".